I recently left a comment on this blog post by Kristen Lamb, author of We Are Not Alone. The prize, if my name was pulled out of the hat, was a critique of the first 20 pages of my novel. The subject of the post was about whether or not authors should leave reviews.
If you get to the bottom you will note that if I had posted this blog post last month than I would have got my name in the prize hat three times rather than just the once. Well, even as I was writing that rather inane comment part of me was hoping to hell that I didn’t win.
Because the truth hurts, of course. And the truth from someone like Kristen Lamb. Ouch!
As a budding author I am constantly deluding myself about how good I am. Part of it is simple survival skills. No one would ever finish anything without some ego to push us along, but part of it is (gasp) I genuinely believe that I can do this that I am getting there, that one day I could be a (double gasp) Kristen Lamb of this world.
Reading blog posts like hers, or thinking about the practical things like exactly how much it would cost to pay for a copyeditor, help to put the world back into shockingly clear perspective.
Oh, good lord, I have such along way to go! Help me!
Eventually I pulled myself out of a corner and decided that it still may be possible to end this month’s Insecure Writer’s Support Group (brought to you by Alex. J Cavanagh over at http://alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.co.uk/p/the-insecure-writers-support-group.html ) on a positive note. What do I actually want from all this?
I want to write and I want people to read it. I really want, as Kristen mentions, someone to care enough to send me an email telling me when my commas have wandered into the wrong place. I want to write and I want to build a network of people I can share with. Not just the writing itself but the experience of writing and learning about writing.
And if, ten years down the line, my work has still not graduated from Wattpad hopefully I’ll be surrounded by friends who can buy me (virtual) drinks and tell me where my commas should actually be.
And the critique prize draw appears to be a regular thing on Kristen Lamb’s, so maybe I’ll try again next time.
Thanks guys, I appreciate you stopping by.
And for those of you who stopped by last month I have updated my Goodreads profile with all the books. I haven’t started one yet as I need to finish the very funny Soulless by Gail Garriger first , but be assured my intent is there.