This month I’m focusing on my ‘to read’ pile. The number of fiction books bulking it out are ones that I really would like to read, but I just can’t bring myself to open that first page.
They include, Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas, The Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness, Stolen by Kelley Armstrong, Fated by Benedict Jacka and Daughter of Smoke and Bone by Lani Taylor. These are all books that I think hold elements of the story that I am trying to tell in my own WIP. What if, I’m constantly asking, those books are just too good, or deal with the issues that I want to deal with much better than I ever could? These people who have ‘made it’ are giants and I really don’t feel able to scrape myself up to their level.
When I sit and hold those satisfyingly real books I become aware of the uselessness of my heroine (constantly appearing to make stupid decisions), the weak rambling nature of my structure and the fact that my premise is one that no one will ever be enticed in to.
My particular terror at the moment is Throne of Glass as I know Sarah J Maas started out on Fictionpress which is where I first posted some early drafts. When I compare her progress to mine it’s enough to make me curl up and start rocking. Honestly, what have I done with my life?
At some stage though I am either going to have to suck it up and read them, or just clear them out. What do you think? How bad can it be? Has anyone out there read one of those books, or do you have a book of your own that taunts your own creative endeavours?
And if you’re am insecure writer who wants to share then follow the link to Alex J. Cavanaugh’s blog, http://alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.co.uk/p/the-insecure-writers-support-group.html